I have not posted in a while....because i am ashamed of myself.
I view my relationship with food as someone with a drug addiction. I love it and hate it at the same time. I want it and am repulsed by it all at once.
Trying to do a liquid diet for the rest of the month i think. I need to do something to get the weight off. It is taking over my brain. All i can think about it how fat i look and how horrible i feel and how everyone looks at me and knows that i have no self control.
I will make this liquid diet work. I will. I will. I WILL!